ignore me. I just have to write it out of me.

I went to guitar lesson when my music teacher grabbed me and took me into her office. There was this other girl, and she wanted us to sing. I can sing, but I can’t do it in a choir and in front of people who really listen to me. I sing all the time, seriously all the time, but when people ask me to sing I can’t… 
So she asked me to sing a song with this girl. She sang, I didn’t. Because I couldn’t. I can sing that, but it fucking scare me that she listens, and that she’s a music teacher and stuff like that. Oh, and I can’t hear my voice if someone else sings next to me, and then I can’t sing myself. 

She told me to go away, though she didn’t seem mad, she just said that “oh, she’s so shy”.

And I’m going to some singing competition in a choir. And I have no fucking idea why I told them I’d go, because as I said, I can’t sing if I don’t hear my voice and when people want me to sing.

Though my guitar teacher says that I have better voice than a lot of these singers nowadays.

And I wish I knew why I make it so big.

It’s nothing.

Right?

Though I fucking humiliated myself.